Sunday, March 13, 2011

A year later…

Baby, you did not break my heart, you opened it
Happy first birthday in Heaven, we miss you and we LOVE you so much!!
  Page 3/13/10

What can I say baby? I still miss you. I will always LOVE you! We will always LOVE you!! Page, you changed us both forever. We will never forget. You will always be our baby. Our first born. Our son.

It still boggles my mind that I am a mom. I am a mom, to an angel. I do not comfort my baby in the middle of the night; he comforts me when I wake up crying in the middle of the night. No one calls to see how the baby is, they just check in to make sure I am ok. There are no pictures. Only a scrapbook of ultrasounds, one of you alive and healthy and the one that delivered the tragic news you had died. I kept the first few things I bought for you and gave the rest away. I kept the little Phish onesie and the Phish hat, they were the very first things I bought. I kept the sympathy cards. I kept the baby‘s breath from the flowers that were sent. I needed these things, something tangible to touch, something to hold.


I miss you and LOVE you more then I can express in words. You will always be a part of our life. A momma never forgets. Thank you for the little signs to remind us, that we are loved too.


I love you too!