Sunday, December 16, 2012

In response....

Tragedy struck. It will be ingrained in history. Let us not respond with fear or revenge and hatred or anger. Lets respond with Love, compassion, empathy -unity. This is not about gun control - not even violent video games. Its about love, the ability to give and sometimes more importantly- recieve love. Why are we blaming the guns and not the mental health system that failed this kid or psychotropic drugs this guy was on? Pharmacuticals are killing people at alarming rates. The "zombies" are real. They are drugged.  These brain altering chemicals are dangerous. I mean, if we are gonna point fingers...
During the aftermath I avoided tv as much as possible. My knowledge of the incident is limited to a few online articles. I have been praying and meditating. My heart just breaks for these parents. Sometimes to open your heart, I mean really open your heart, it must break open. Maybe not for everybody... There is a shift happening in human consiousness its happening in our hearts. Tell someone you love them, hold your family close. Most important turn that love back in towards yourself. Feel the shift inside you. Its not about the gifts, its about the presence this Christmas. Take a step back from the trauma. Your thoughts and feelings are a part of the collective consiousness. Love and fear can not coexist. When your body releases adrenaline (the fear hormone, "fight or flight" hormone, this hormone saves lives, etc) it can not release oxytocin (love hormone). You can choose. Your choice matters.
Rebirth takes many forms. People are reborn through Christ, people change and heal and become new again. I have had many rebirths in this lifetime. You have to be willing to give your soul to the Light, and sometimes you must face the darkest parts of your shadow first.
The media wants to spread trauma, it makes them rich. They want you to be afraid, very afraid. Then you will beg to trade in your rights and privacy in the sake of safety.
Your awareness is more important then ever.
And what if we all respond with love?
It will certainly change the world.
You have the power to change the world. At the very least you have power over your own reality.
I can not expain why this sort of thing happens, I just don't know. But I find myself not just praying for the children, but also for the sick individual that did this. He was sick. He was not evil. In an act of unconditional love I have been praying for his soul too.
I feel that my fears, our collective fears feed into these traumas, even manifest them. I take responsiblity for my thoughts, my anxiety, my fear. I was afraid to be in school. I did not feel safe. Even in the years before Columbine, that occured my senior year of high school, I felt in danger at school. No one really picked on me, I was not a target of a bully, except the few times I stuck up for fellow classmates. But the point is I fed into that collective consiousness. The bomb threat drills, the lock downs, they sent a message to be prepared, violence was immenint. But what was being done to prevent violence?  Why not spend the same amount of effort offering help to the "at risk?" What do we do for the mother's begging for help?
I don't have any answers. Only more questions.
Please pray with me. Let us all join together: Protestants & Pagens, Jews & Jedis, Mormons & Muslims, let us unite in Love & Light. Unite as one human race. To pray for peace you must sit and be at peace, it strarts within each of us. Pray for love by opening your heart and let God's love flow through you. Pray for understanding, and be open to hearing answers. Be an active participant in the shift towards love.
Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts. Thank you for your prayers. Know that they are being heard. They will be answered.

One Love

*I have no spell check. This was written fairly quickly, but plan on editing it later for grammer and spelling.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

12 12 12

Its been 1 year, 1 month, 1 day since our union. Happy Anniversary to my twin flame.
Its so amazing to be alive right now. I have been spending much of my time sleeping, meditating, and healing. Riding this wave wherever it may take me without any expectation. I am releasing what no longer serves me. I am focused on healing my body, mind, and soul. As I heal myself, I heal the planet and all life around me.
I am healing.
I am awakening.
I am remembering my power.
Spirit is flowing through me.
I surrender to the flow.

One Love

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Fibromyalgia Awareness


May is Fibromyalgia Awareness Month





I have been coping with Fibromyalgia for many years. Its the primary reason I do not work. Its a syndrome that causes me chronic daily pain and fatigue. Some days are better then others. Some days I have some energy. Some days the pain is less intense. But it is always there and there is no escape. Fibromyalgia has no known cause or cure. 




There is tons of information available on the internet. If you want to learn more I suggest you start with http://www.fmaware.org/ or  the local group http://farny.org/ 
Or feel free to ask me anything! 




Thursday, May 3, 2012

Make a wish....







Never miss an opportunity to make a wish!




But if I tell you will it still come true?







Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Amber & Hazelwood

This is my medicine



These necklaces are medicinal and therapeutic.
Its an added bonus they are pretty too. I just got the hazelwood one today. It also has little hematite and obsidian snowflake beads. I ordered the hazelwood from Hazelaid a company I found online. "Hazelwood products help to create an alkaline environment in your body which may help prevent and appease many of the symptoms caused by acidosis (being too acidic)." I am not sure this is what my problem is but I have some symptoms and its worth a try. At this point I am doing everything with the purpose of healing myself in mind. The other beads are good for neutralizing negativity, but I picked them for the neutral colors. I plan on wearing this every day for maximum benefits, I wanted something versatile.
The amber necklace I have had for many years. My ex's parents went to Poland and his mom brought me this beautiful necklace home. Its always been very comfortable to wear, and matches my eyes/hair/complexion very well. Amber is actually a resin from the Baltic region, when worn against the skin it releases succinic acid. This chemical reaction reduces inflammation in the body and improves the immune system. I have been wearing it pretty regularly lately. I does seem to help a little. I will have to wait and see how my hazelwood effects my symptoms. I am really hoping it helps!


Here is a before picture. The wood is supposed to turn dark after it has been worn a while, its evidence its working to alkalize the body.











Monday, March 26, 2012